Be kind

Life is so short.  I sometimes have visions of the light going out of Jemimah's eyes as the injection took its course.  And I wanted so much to pull her back and make her stay longer.  I have dreams about her.  Last night she was running in a forest.

Life is short and precious.

I want to be kinder.

I want to be kinder to children.  To my beautiful precious children.
To other children I know.  I children I meet.  How can I do this.  I think thing that most often makes me unkind to my children is rushing.

• I need to remind myself to slow down and focus on them.  Make myself some reminders.

Other children I know - I am having a moritorium - if that is the word on being bitchy and having negative thoughts about the nephews and nieces this year.  I think things have improved a bit.  We had a lovely climbing session yesterday for Cade's birthday.  I would like more days like that.
I feel like I have some lost time to make up for with my friends kids.
My goals this month are to:

• choose a nice book for Martin for his birthday
• put some plants in a pot for Charlotte
• find a good present for Rachel.

Other children.  It makes me sad that thousands of children are dying of starvation everyday in our world.  Thousands of mothers are watching the light go out  of their children's eyes or cry in pain because they have nothing to fill their stomachs with.  What can I do about this?